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Christmas Birthday Funeral

by Elephant

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there’s new life growing in you there’s new life growing in you you’re young and wild a restless child be safe from harm here in my arms don’t be broken in two there’s new life growing in you there’s new life growing in you there’s new life growing in you you’re innocent you’re ignorant and i can tell that you’re doing well just keep on singing that tune there’s new life growing in you there’s new life growing in you there’s new life growing in you your childlike soul is out of control you’re running away like you’re being chased you’re halfway to the moon there’s new life growing in you
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Roald Dahl 05:27
i don’t want to grow up i don’t want to be in love i just want to stay the same stay a child for all my days i don’t want to leave my home i don’t want to be a drone i will always stay the same stay a child for all my days stay a child stay a child young and wild young and wild i don’t want to lose my friends i don’t want this to be the end So i will stay this way, never change stay a child for all my days I don’t want to be big and tall i don’t want to grow old at all can I please not fade to grey stay a child for all my days stay a child stay a child young and wild young and wild
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the hands i held are strangers now they’ve disappeared and can’t be found i wish i could just be stronger for my life is rosy no longer you broke my heart when you did not say you were coming home for a couple of days now i don’t even want her and her name is rosy no longer now your silhouette is floating by its body fades except for its eyes my body and soul were conquered and my spirit is rosy no longer
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i need a sailboat for my mind so i can leave you far behind i need a sailboat to get away so i can disappear before you turn grey but this all feels just like a dream where nothing is what it seems to be i need an airplane to watch you shrink so you can't follow where i think i need an airplane to not come back so i will never again be attacked but this all feels just in my mind where the light between the cracks is hard to find i need a sailboat for my soul so i can once again have control i need a sailboat just for me so i can die alone at sea but this all feels just like a dream where nothing is what it seems to be but this all feels just in my mind where the light between the cracks is hard to find
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holy fire, Christmas choir youthful thinking, wishful singing old soul frowning, children howling long lost darling no more harming me no desire, Christmas choir youthful talking, spirit walking old soul dying, children sighing long lost darling, no more harming you
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live forever please dear fiona don’t grow old at all it’s not worth being big and tall so live forever please dear fiona you’re a reckless child don’t you ever lose that smile please but it feels like somebody up there is watching me and i cannot break from his gazing eternity i would not even mind if i were left behind i just want you to live live forever, fiona
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You're Passt 02:35
you were once the only angel from my favorite memory but now your soul is haunted, it longs to be free please don't fear the loneliness, it probably won't last i feel your body moving, my dear, you're passt you were once the only girl from my favorite memory but i can feel your eyes adjusting far away from me i can't remember happiness before my spirit crashed but maybe nothing matters, for my dear, you're passt you're now the only monster from my faded memory your mind is somewhere new and bright and your back has wings my ship is sailing far away so you better tell me fast where it is you're going, and why my dear you're passt
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i want sea and sun and shine not for me, but for my mind maybe it’s wonderful silent and beautiful sea maybe i’ll see you there maybe i’ll see you there i want sea and sun and shine not for now, for all of time maybe i’ll feel it right just when i feel the bright sun maybe i’ll find you here maybe i’ll find you here i want sea and sun and shine staying in my youthful eyes maybe i’ll find it when my soul will once again shine maybe i’ll meet you then maybe i’ll meet you then
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Body 05:18
there is a new body and it’s shifting through my eyes but i’ll still be here when summer ends to say farewell to all my friends i won’t see you again at all there is a new body and it’s swimming to my shore but i’ll still be working to contain the awful thoughts that do remain but i won’t be feeling the same at all there is a new body and it’s seeping through my mind but i’ll still be wanting just to burn the photographs and all the words and i will never return at all there is a new body and it’s flashing through my brain but i’ll still be missing all those times when what was yours was also mine but i don’t think it was my prime at all
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Birthday 02:24
i can feel my body growing i can feel the wind is blowing but i have these memories when i felt not a single thing but you i can feel my body's birthday celebrating in the worst way looking through the photographs that make me want to die and laugh with you i can feel the sun is setting on the times i keep forgetting like when we were on the road and i told you i'd never grow from you i can feel my eyes are closing so that my soul isn't showing i just don't want you to see that my soul lives in agony from you
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can’t be forgiven cannot forget memories have risen while my soul hasn’t yet was i there in your mind in your mind in your mind is it me? was it you? are you deaf? am i blind am i a child? am i young? am i free? am i wild? could i be free? could i be free? can’t be forgiven cannot let go feelings once hidden now start to flow can’t be forgiven cannot let go feelings once hidden now start to flow was i there in your mind in your mind in your mind is it me? was it you? are you deaf? am i blind am i a child? am i young? am i free? am i wild? could i be free? could i be free? come the morning, i will not wake i feel like if i live another day, i will turn grey but feelings like these tend to come and go when you are young so keep on spitting fire and let loose your tongue
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i can forget you, i will if your ghost breathes in me still for i can’t see your mind i can’t see into those eyes or what’s behind i can forget you, i will when i feel those lonely chills so never mind my soul when you’re talking like you do you’re in control i can forget you, i will i hope i won’t see you until i can sort it out in my head what you want and what you dream in your bed i can forget you, i will i can forget you, i will i can forget you, i will
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I want to forget who you are To send away the blood and the scars And sail away to the moon And maybe then I’ll see you soon I want to forget what I am And float away with violent hands And sail away to where you are To see the earth from afar I need to forget what I want A peaceful mind, a debutante And sail away when I’m dead To lift the guilt from my head I need to forget where I’ve been And never come right back again And sail away when I’m lost get back my life at any cost
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your silver-blue haired friend once said the feelings you have for me are dead they slip and fall and fade away they age your mind and turn you grey so feel the pain, i’ll feel your fire save my soul, kill the desire i’ll take these thoughts to my grave they age my mind and turn me grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely so as you look out to the moon and sing as though i can hear you you realize i’m far away i age your mind and turn you grey i’m mostly numb but i can feel the haunting thoughts i know are real i’ll sift around another day as my mind ages and i turn grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely your silhouette is teasing me your horrid words are freezing me i’ll keep your violent stings at bay as my mind ages and i turn grey the fear i felt about you flies as i wave my heartache goodbye i feel the price i have to pay it aged my mind and turned me grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely the lights will flicker off and on as time goes by and i get strong the feelings come to me in waves they age my mind and turn me grey the words you said are all locked up the joy of pain the sting of love the body echoes through my brain it ages my mind and turns me grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely so if you call out or if you weep that’s the treasure that i seek but maybe this is all in vain you age my mind and turn me grey feel the lack of harmony it brings you down onto your knees these bitter thoughts they do remain as your mind ages and they turn you grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely a falling out of two dear friends surely this must be the end water slipping through the drain age my mind and turn me grey never gone but never here sunrise points to all my fears can i walk through your domain if my mind ages and i turn grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely the coldest night in wintertime is all year round in my mind the mountain tops and rough terrain will age my mind and turn me grey i cannot sleep if there’s no sound the bitter thoughts, they must be drowned i will dream if they’re contained but my mind ages and i turn grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely now your silver-blue haired friend told you the secret of your inner truth the body warps, disintegrates your mind ages and turns you grey a pointless death, a silent nod the thoughtless mind, the teeth of God the years i wasted in the rain will age my mind and turn me grey oh how they turn me grey so take me kill me leave me hold me life must once or twice be lonely
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i can’t see myself on the open water i can’t feel against my face the howling wind my silhouette will fade with your beautiful ghost and i’ll be reunited with my long lost friend i can’t feel your body moving through my horrible universe i can’t remember the look of the glow on your skin your smile was warped and fake to begin with so i’ll fade away and see my long lost friend these are no waters we’ve navigated darling but i’d still sail with you i can’t recall the times i’d now die for i can’t believe i lost your ghost again my angel wings are only vulture’s so i’ll fall out and see my long lost friend i can’t see myself when i’m faced at the mirror i can’t stand to go through it again often is my gold complexion dimmed so i’ll crawl away to be with my long lost friend these are no waters we’ve navigated darling but i’d still sail with you i can’t see myself on the open water i can’t feel against my face the howling wind my silhouette will fade with your beautiful ghost and i’ll be reunited with my long lost friend i can’t feel your body moving through my horrible universe i can’t remember the look of the glow on your skin your smile was warped and fake to begin with so i’ll fade away and see my long lost friend these are no waters we’ve navigated darling but i’d still sail with you
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says Luna to the storm “I’ve felt you here before” and it swallows her body whole along with her mind and soul says Luna to the storm “i admire your mighty roar” but I cannot feel a thing for my heart hung by a string “I’ve felt you here before” “I’ve felt you here before” “I’ve felt you says Billy to the sun “you are my favorite one” but he was trapped in the dark and felt those violent sparks says Billy to the sun “Could you and I be one?” he wants his life to change for his thoughts and his words were strange “you are my favorite one” “you are my favorite one” “you are my says Patrick to his mind “i’ll meet you there some time Till then, i’ll twist and fade and pray to not turn grey” says Patrick to his mind “you’re one of a dying kind so never fall in love i think you’ve had enough” “i’ll meet you there some time “i’ll meet you there some time “i’ll meet you
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Bells Bend 02:26
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often is my gold complexion dimmed and often i wish that i could be him he who walks through the valley with no fear because to him you’ve not disappeared well tell me darling can you hear the sound of someone else often is my gold complexion dimmed and often i wish that i could be him he who sings to you in an eternal night the one with no regrets in life well mine is only black and white and i can’t forgive myself often is my gold complexion dimmed and often i wish that i could be him he who feels your light on his aching bones the one who never lost his home well tell me please how you have grown i promise i will not melt
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I lost who i was i lost who i was when i started howling straight at your door i’d rather die than be ignored these feelings come in waves i wish they’d go away although I lost who i was i lost who i was when i started clawing at who i had been i’ll pray to keep all my friends the notions will come in my sleep i wish that they would leave me be although I lost who i was i lost who i was when i started picturing life on the screen look how happy it all could be these thoughts will burst and then fade i wish they’d go away i wish they’d go away i wish they’d go away although
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i'll go to billy's funeral i'll go to billy's funeral i'll go to billy's funeral i'll go to billy's funeral
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can i still be young and wild even if i grow, i grow for miles can i feel the summer sun even if i’m gone and i have no one can i feel the innocence even when i’m old and my life is spent can i please not fade to gray when i face my sorrows and i say thank you, goodbye

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length -- 1 hr 23 min 51 sec
Recorded at Elephant Tusk Recording Studio

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released October 15, 2014

Nila Frederikson -- cover art
Jay Sawyer -- cover model

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