Christmas Birthday Funeral

by Elephant

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length -- 1 hr 23 min 51 sec
Recorded at Elephant Tusk Recording Studio

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released October 15, 2014

Nila Frederikson -- cover art
Jay Sawyer -- cover model

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Track Name: There's New Life Growing In You
there’s new life growing in you
there’s new life growing in you
you’re young and wild
a restless child
be safe from harm
here in my arms
don’t be broken in two
there’s new life growing in you

there’s new life growing in you
there’s new life growing in you
you’re innocent
you’re ignorant
and i can tell
that you’re doing well
just keep on singing that tune
there’s new life growing in you

there’s new life growing in you
there’s new life growing in you
your childlike soul
is out of control
you’re running away
like you’re being chased
you’re halfway to the moon
there’s new life growing in you
Track Name: Roald Dahl
i don’t want to grow up
i don’t want to be in love
i just want to stay the same
stay a child for all my days
i don’t want to leave my home
i don’t want to be a drone
i will always stay the same
stay a child for all my days

stay a child
stay a child
young and wild
young and wild

i don’t want to lose my friends
i don’t want this to be the end
So i will stay this way, never change
stay a child for all my days
I don’t want to be big and tall
i don’t want to grow old at all
can I please not fade to grey
stay a child for all my days

stay a child
stay a child
young and wild
young and wild
Track Name: Rosy No Longer
the hands i held are strangers now
they’ve disappeared and can’t be found
i wish i could just be stronger
for my life is rosy no longer

you broke my heart when you did not say
you were coming home for a couple of days
now i don’t even want her
and her name is rosy no longer

now your silhouette is floating by
its body fades except for its eyes
my body and soul were conquered
and my spirit is rosy no longer
Track Name: I Need a Sailboat
i need a sailboat for my mind
so i can leave you far behind
i need a sailboat to get away
so i can disappear before you turn grey

but this all feels just like a dream
where nothing is what it seems to be

i need an airplane to watch you shrink
so you can't follow where i think
i need an airplane to not come back
so i will never again be attacked

but this all feels just in my mind
where the light between the cracks is hard to find

i need a sailboat for my soul
so i can once again have control
i need a sailboat just for me
so i can die alone at sea

but this all feels just like a dream
where nothing is what it seems to be
but this all feels just in my mind
where the light between the cracks is hard to find
Track Name: Christmas Eve
holy fire, Christmas choir
youthful thinking, wishful singing
old soul frowning, children howling
long lost darling no more harming me

no desire, Christmas choir
youthful talking, spirit walking
old soul dying, children sighing
long lost darling, no more harming you
Track Name: Live Forever, Fiona
live forever please
dear fiona don’t grow old at all
it’s not worth being big and tall
so live forever please
dear fiona you’re a reckless child
don’t you ever lose that smile
please

but it feels like somebody up there is watching me
and i cannot break from his gazing eternity

i would not even mind
if i were left behind
i just want you to live
live forever, fiona
Track Name: You're Passt
you were once the only angel from my favorite memory
but now your soul is haunted, it longs to be free
please don't fear the loneliness, it probably won't last
i feel your body moving, my dear, you're passt

you were once the only girl from my favorite memory
but i can feel your eyes adjusting far away from me
i can't remember happiness before my spirit crashed
but maybe nothing matters, for my dear, you're passt

you're now the only monster from my faded memory
your mind is somewhere new and bright and your back has wings
my ship is sailing far away so you better tell me fast
where it is you're going, and why my dear you're passt
Track Name: Sea and Sun and Shine
i want sea and sun and shine
not for me, but for my mind
maybe it’s wonderful
silent and beautiful
sea
maybe i’ll see you there
maybe i’ll see you there

i want sea and sun and shine
not for now, for all of time
maybe i’ll feel it right
just when i feel the bright
sun
maybe i’ll find you here
maybe i’ll find you here

i want sea and sun and shine
staying in my youthful eyes
maybe i’ll find it when
my soul will once again
shine
maybe i’ll meet you then
maybe i’ll meet you then
Track Name: Body
there is a new body
and it’s shifting through my eyes
but i’ll still be here when summer ends
to say farewell to all my friends
i won’t see you again at all

there is a new body
and it’s swimming to my shore
but i’ll still be working to contain
the awful thoughts that do remain
but i won’t be feeling the same at all

there is a new body
and it’s seeping through my mind
but i’ll still be wanting just to burn
the photographs and all the words
and i will never return at all

there is a new body
and it’s flashing through my brain
but i’ll still be missing all those times
when what was yours was also mine
but i don’t think it was my prime at all
Track Name: Birthday
i can feel my body growing
i can feel the wind is blowing
but i have these memories
when i felt not a single thing but you

i can feel my body's birthday
celebrating in the worst way
looking through the photographs
that make me want to die and laugh with you

i can feel the sun is setting
on the times i keep forgetting
like when we were on the road
and i told you i'd never grow from you

i can feel my eyes are closing
so that my soul isn't showing
i just don't want you to see
that my soul lives in agony from you
Track Name: Can't Be Forgiven, Will Not Wake
can’t be forgiven
cannot forget
memories have risen
while my soul hasn’t yet

was i there in your mind
in your mind in your mind
is it me? was it you?
are you deaf? am i blind
am i a child? am i young?
am i free? am i wild?
could i be free?
could i be free?
can’t be forgiven
cannot let go
feelings once hidden
now start to flow

can’t be forgiven
cannot let go
feelings once hidden
now start to flow

was i there in your mind
in your mind in your mind
is it me? was it you?
are you deaf? am i blind
am i a child? am i young?
am i free? am i wild?
could i be free?
could i be free?

come the morning, i will not wake
i feel like if i live another day, i will turn grey
but feelings like these tend to come and go
when you are young
so keep on spitting fire
and let loose your tongue
Track Name: I Can Forget You, I Will
i can forget you, i will
if your ghost breathes in me still
for i can’t see your mind
i can’t see into those eyes
or what’s behind

i can forget you, i will
when i feel those lonely chills
so never mind my soul
when you’re talking like you do
you’re in control

i can forget you, i will
i hope i won’t see you until
i can sort it out in my head
what you want and what you dream
in your bed

i can forget you, i will
i can forget you, i will
i can forget you, i will
Track Name: Elephant Battles Darkness
I want to forget who you are
To send away the blood and the scars
And sail away to the moon
And maybe then I’ll see you soon

I want to forget what I am
And float away with violent hands
And sail away to where you are
To see the earth from afar

I need to forget what I want
A peaceful mind, a debutante
And sail away when I’m dead
To lift the guilt from my head

I need to forget where I’ve been
And never come right back again
And sail away when I’m lost
get back my life at any cost
Track Name: Life Must Once or Twice Be Lonely
your silver-blue haired friend once said
the feelings you have for me are dead
they slip and fall and fade away
they age your mind and turn you grey
so feel the pain, i’ll feel your fire
save my soul, kill the desire
i’ll take these thoughts to my grave
they age my mind and turn me grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

so as you look out to the moon
and sing as though i can hear you
you realize i’m far away
i age your mind and turn you grey
i’m mostly numb but i can feel
the haunting thoughts i know are real
i’ll sift around another day
as my mind ages and i turn grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

your silhouette is teasing me
your horrid words are freezing me
i’ll keep your violent stings at bay
as my mind ages and i turn grey
the fear i felt about you flies
as i wave my heartache goodbye
i feel the price i have to pay
it aged my mind and turned me grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

the lights will flicker off and on
as time goes by and i get strong
the feelings come to me in waves
they age my mind and turn me grey
the words you said are all locked up
the joy of pain the sting of love
the body echoes through my brain
it ages my mind and turns me grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

so if you call out or if you weep
that’s the treasure that i seek
but maybe this is all in vain
you age my mind and turn me grey
feel the lack of harmony
it brings you down onto your knees
these bitter thoughts they do remain
as your mind ages and they turn you grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

a falling out of two dear friends
surely this must be the end
water slipping through the drain
age my mind and turn me grey
never gone but never here
sunrise points to all my fears
can i walk through your domain
if my mind ages and i turn grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

the coldest night in wintertime
is all year round in my mind
the mountain tops and rough terrain
will age my mind and turn me grey
i cannot sleep if there’s no sound
the bitter thoughts, they must be drowned
i will dream if they’re contained
but my mind ages and i turn grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely

now your silver-blue haired friend told you
the secret of your inner truth
the body warps, disintegrates
your mind ages and turns you grey
a pointless death, a silent nod
the thoughtless mind, the teeth of God
the years i wasted in the rain
will age my mind and turn me grey

oh how they turn me grey
so take me kill me leave me hold me
life must once or twice be lonely
Track Name: No Waters We've Navigated
i can’t see myself on the open water
i can’t feel against my face the howling wind
my silhouette will fade with your beautiful ghost
and i’ll be reunited with my long lost friend

i can’t feel your body moving through my horrible universe
i can’t remember the look of the glow on your skin
your smile was warped and fake to begin with
so i’ll fade away and see my long lost friend

these are no waters we’ve navigated darling
but i’d still sail with you

i can’t recall the times i’d now die for
i can’t believe i lost your ghost again
my angel wings are only vulture’s
so i’ll fall out and see my long lost friend

i can’t see myself when i’m faced at the mirror
i can’t stand to go through it again
often is my gold complexion dimmed
so i’ll crawl away to be with my long lost friend

these are no waters we’ve navigated darling
but i’d still sail with you

i can’t see myself on the open water
i can’t feel against my face the howling wind
my silhouette will fade with your beautiful ghost
and i’ll be reunited with my long lost friend

i can’t feel your body moving through my horrible universe
i can’t remember the look of the glow on your skin
your smile was warped and fake to begin with
so i’ll fade away and see my long lost friend

these are no waters we’ve navigated darling
but i’d still sail with you
Track Name: Says Luna to the Storm
says Luna to the storm
“I’ve felt you here before”
and it swallows her body whole
along with her mind and soul

says Luna to the storm
“i admire your mighty roar”
but I cannot feel a thing
for my heart hung by a string

“I’ve felt you here before”
“I’ve felt you here before”
“I’ve felt you

says Billy to the sun
“you are my favorite one”
but he was trapped in the dark
and felt those violent sparks

says Billy to the sun
“Could you and I be one?”
he wants his life to change
for his thoughts and his words were strange

“you are my favorite one”
“you are my favorite one”
“you are my

says Patrick to his mind
“i’ll meet you there some time
Till then, i’ll twist and fade
and pray to not turn grey”

says Patrick to his mind
“you’re one of a dying kind
so never fall in love
i think you’ve had enough”

“i’ll meet you there some time
“i’ll meet you there some time
“i’ll meet you
Track Name: Often Is My Gold Complexion Dimmed
often is my gold complexion dimmed
and often i wish that i could be him
he who walks through the valley with no fear
because to him you’ve not disappeared
well tell me darling can you hear
the sound of someone else

often is my gold complexion dimmed
and often i wish that i could be him
he who sings to you in an eternal night
the one with no regrets in life
well mine is only black and white
and i can’t forgive myself

often is my gold complexion dimmed
and often i wish that i could be him
he who feels your light on his aching bones
the one who never lost his home
well tell me please how you have grown
i promise i will not melt
Track Name: I Lost Who I Was
I lost who i was
i lost who i was
when i started howling straight at your door
i’d rather die than be ignored
these feelings come in waves
i wish they’d go away
although

I lost who i was
i lost who i was
when i started clawing at who i had been
i’ll pray to keep all my friends
the notions will come in my sleep
i wish that they would leave me be
although

I lost who i was
i lost who i was
when i started picturing life on the screen
look how happy it all could be
these thoughts will burst and then fade
i wish they’d go away
i wish they’d go away
i wish they’d go away
although
Track Name: Billy's Funeral
i'll go to billy's funeral
i'll go to billy's funeral
i'll go to billy's funeral
i'll go to billy's funeral
Track Name: Thank You, Goodbye
can i still be young and wild
even if i grow, i grow for miles
can i feel the summer sun
even if i’m gone and i have no one
can i feel the innocence
even when i’m old and my life is spent
can i please not fade to gray
when i face my sorrows and i say

thank you, goodbye