I’d like to know what goes on in my brain I’d be curious to know if I’m in love or insane And if you feel the heart that beats loudly in your chest Know that I need you the most, and I love you the best And morning turns to noon, and the noon will fade away Into someone’s loving arms that will get them through the day And I’d like to know if you really want to go To the land beyond the desert, to the land known as the coast I’d like to breathe with no tension in the air With nobody ever telling me that life is all unfair Be my other half, would you be my other eyes Can you drift into my soul, and from there, never rise The leaves will fall away, but the fall will never leave I don’t know what I’m hearing, so I will never believe And I’d like to breathe the air of sunny gold In the land beyond the desert, in the land known as the coast I’d like to see what lies on the other side Be in life, be in death, be in selfishness and pride I feel like a morning, but I look like the night I can feel like I’m dying, but at last, I think I’m right This boat will sail away, follow orange setting sun While it’s never coming back, at least I know it was fun I’d like to see what will happen when you go To the land beyond the desert, to the land known as the coast

You sleep in my bed, my dear I’ll sleep on the floor Sycamore seas and the mockingbird trees Love is not mine, it is yours You dream in your head while you sleep I’ll dream in my feet Newspaper leaves count the years till we’re free Hate is a black and white sheet You find hope wherever you go I find it in sun Halloween birds and cellophane words Sing love is not two, it is one You will speak when no one else will I’ll speak when I die Sailors in red sing the songs in their head Says hate is a thing we all try You bring joy when you call with your voice I'll bring what I want Sending me love when I hate what’s above I said love is the chill, it’s the haunt You sing “heaven help my cause” I sing “give me strength” I’ve been amused but I call myself used And now hate’s an immeasurable length

I feel a little older, and I feel bold I feel my dead skin glowing in the cold And I know Siddhartha, and I know God And I know I am, and I know that I am not So would you pretend to know me well Would you pretend to know me well To know me well I feel your eyes move, then I feel your bones And then my lungs collapse, my brain is made of stone And I know where I’m not, and I know my worth I feel your soul connected to the crooked earth And for your ghost I almost fell And for your ghost I almost fell I almost fell I found heartbreak where my heart was I found my knees were shaking, trying to fight the dust And you found nothing, deep in your mind When I felt nothing when it all burned me inside And now I come out of my shell With scary words I cannot spell and i cannot tell

Oh you’re gonna break If you let my bones shake And the sky was made for me And you’re gonna fall If you storm through it all And I see that you’re never gonna be Oh you’re gonna drip From the mind’s empty lips And see me walking on my hands And you’re gonna sing With the dead, the autumn leaves And feel the words that are drifting in the sand You’re gonna fear What goes too far and what’s too near You’ve got a hundred different thoughts inside your brain And you’re gonna hide It’s not too far from suicide And it will be just like you’re soaked in the rain And you’re gonna blend Into a crowd of a thousand men And scream if your thought will get too loud And you’re gonna burn Trust me, we all get a turn And somehow rise from the ashes in the ground Well you’re gonna dream If you’re stuck right in between My house and a field of something gold And you’re gonna slip If you cannot get a grip Cause I’ve seen you fall when you lost all your control And you’re gonna breathe All the wind, I do believe As if you never heard the sound come off the trees And you’re gonna dread The voices calling through your head And when you fall, you better fall right to your knees And I’m gonna fight If it comes to someone’s eyes And breathe for an afternoon, at least And I’m gonna roll And feel tired of my home While your words were bouncing far from reach And I’m gonna sound My face is in the ground I feel lost, and your name, I do not know And I’m gonna wake While the dawn just imitates And always will, so where is there to go? I’m gonna hear That you’ve become to me endeared I’ve got no plans and no car and no heart And I’m gonna slide My way into the other side But if you think that you need me, that’s a start I’m gonna learn to kill off all of my concerns and beg you for a chance to be intact and I’m gonna rain from the sky some other day and steal everything that I have lacked And I’m gonna pay To have my voice fill up the day As I’ve told you, I’m filled up with all your words And I’m gonna talk Like I’m a crook, but I’m a hawk And I’ll say that what you believe is absurd And I’m gonna run Cause you have all and I have none I will forget, I will conquer, I will hide And I’m gonna fly When I have looked into your eyes As if I can’t see what goes on inside Oh we’re gonna find That we’ve gone deaf and halfway blind As we seep from the cracks in our mind And we’re gonna bleed And never ask for what we need Even though what we need is what’s defined And we’re gonna speak And fall off of the mountain peak But climb back to the top in reverse And we’re gonna pray To not become the black and grey Across your floor and to your room I do traverse We’re gonna feel Like we’re supposed to be unreal We need to be like anything we’re not And we’re gonna flow Into your mind to make you glow I’m gonna count all the things I haven’t got We’re gonna love That we are not to be proud of And hide the things we don’t want to see And we’re gonna hate That we know what does not await As for me, I’ve been wanting just to flee We’re gonna die If we do not realize The hardest thing is just to let go And we’re gonna sink When our eyes refuse to blink While my heart, it felt like it froze Oh and we’re gonna steer Into tragedy, my dear And I’ve forgotten everything I learned And we’re gonna break When we let our bones shake I feel my heart wrapped in sun while it burns

Learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a storm shouting violently directed towards the trees And if you’re gone when I get here I just want to say hooray for me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a million lightning bugs trying to find the deepest sea And far away is a postcard that just says Happy birthday to me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a bird in the sky that never learned how to breathe And send regards to the fire fighters singing How good for me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a pillow underneath your head and underneath the breeze The cold is young and afraid but never quite says How wonderful for me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a needle in a haystack and a needle in debris And for an afternoon that seems to never end How fantastic for me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a shadow in the dark that never wants to be seen And never fall from heaven, underneath the rocks How terrific for me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a microscopic skeleton who broke both his knees And maybe someday I will run from everyone Extraordinary me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a sad aristocrat who is trapped in catastrophe And in the morning we will wake up like the dawn Happy birthday to me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a dancing little criminal who laughs eternally And with the night in both our eyes and everywhere Happy birthday to me And I learn to stop worrying and learn to be Like a good for nothing angel who defies eternity And never see the end of anything, I swear Oh hooray for me

Out on the beach where the saltwater grows Born in a hut, and born in a hole Says with a smile to replace all the words With slippery cellophane follows the birds Finding a mind with ecstasy shields She sings to the wind nowhere in the fields The trees whistle back while greeting the day When all of the ignorant all float away Heart-piercing sounds drift away from her mind When she finds out she’s two of a kind And she talks to the sky when she wants to run And buries the cash she stole from the sun She dresses in black in the heat of July When bright red cars come drizzling on by And the lights come down upon her head And welcomes the nights as she goes to bed In memory, a gold-painted she Will breathe in the dark and cut down the trees In memory with palindrome keys She swears me an oath, her voice is the breeze In memory, irregular she She hides down below, to keep from being seen In memory, wrote in Linear B Will close both her eyes, she dances with me

Paper bear, I’ve seen you wander Seen you squander the thoughts you have had And maybe someday sees you better If you’d let her, good and the bad But paper bear with paper claws And teeth made out of tin Won’t you come back to me Come back to me Some day again Paper sun, I’ve seen you fishing Seen you wishing to know the moon But fondly look back to the autumn If you have got them, don’t let them lose So paper sun with paper light With love that’s made of dirt Won't you come back to me Come back to me Far from the earth Paper girl that controls thunder Gold to plunder, out on the shore Climb the mountain if you want to I’ve still got you stuck in the door But paper girl with paper brain And thoughts made out of clay Won't you come back to me Come back to me Some other day Paper lake will freeze in winter Moonlight blister somewhere beneath Can we go back to last Christmas Sometimes wishes, under the wreath But paper lake and paper ocean Boat made out of stone Won't you come back to me Come back to me Will you come home?

All my bones hurt from the pain That I gained from what I did on a dark winter day You said you only knew of love If it was someone else you’re thinking of All my bones hurt from the lack Of a friend who only sticks a knife in my back And I think love never dies But what’s the point if love passes by All my bones hurt from the teeth When they bit so deep that they showed what was beneath And I am never coming back To where you are, no I’m never coming back All my bones hurt from the wings That had grown from my back where there in nothing in between And I think time is a wound But to the pain I’ve been attuned All my bones hurt from the woods Where we spent several years when we know that we never should But my eyes melt away And follow on, my dear, I melt away

I fall asleep with Juniper And we won’t ever wake up Oh save me now If you even know how And feel a blowing wind And I kill some time with Juniper In the morning kind of light And tired brains Come in from the rain And look up to the sun An eternal dance with Juniper This summer in the park And I’ll never see The sky through the trees And never see the dawn And fill my eyes with Juniper When all is black and white She climbs my bones To find just a home And finds it in my mind I gave my ghost to Juniper When my soul has died away The clouds are green And our eyes are serene And we have no sense of time I fall asleep with Juniper And we won’t ever wake up Oh save me now If you even know how And feel a blowing wind

Old dear bird can you sit around and talk While the spiders from my youth Draw a line made out of chalk And if I see you in the window And I feel the wind blow I can finally go now I can finally go now Old dear bird can you sit around with me When the voices from the thunder Scream violently And if the light is never coming Both of us are running I feel I’m becoming bold I’m becoming bold Old dear bird will you find me in the ground While my face is in the earth But my mind is in the clouds And never be the happy ending I need some befriending I am just sending love I am sending love Old dear bird can you hang out in a tree That sings the answer to your prayer And finds the peace that you need And will I see you in the morning Whistle in your glory Life is pretty boring now Life is pretty boring now Old dear bird can you help me watch the dawn When I fix my crooked antlers And clap my paws And you’re a crook and you’re a time bomb I have never been wrong I can never sleep in peace I can never sleep in peace

This will be the last thing I see Before I close my eyes With stony smile Can you stay a while? And never leave My side For you are my only one You are my home Where will we be this time next year? When I have closed my eyes With stony smile Can you stay a while? And never leave My side For you are my only one You are my home

Sister, do reach for the gun on the mantle you stole Fire in the brain lights the curtains that swallow you whole And brother does breathe in the dead air and has self-control The volunteer fire department extinguish the cold Colorful taxis await my own new blushing bride And stones fall from heaven and clouds come down calming the tide And she waves at the grief stricken people who see what’s inside And they form a line, counting cars, as they ask for the time Sweetwater tides come on rushing to where they are lost The fish broke their backs trying to save some face with a coin toss And the sailor does find that the God in the air knows the cost And fishermen sing idly by while they’re covered in frost For someone who knows where the birds go when summer is gone For anyone knows that the sun jumps off roofs we were on For somewhere is anywhere bleeding for greeting the dawn For anywhere steals all the mornings that were all foregone

ralph waldo emerson